Thursday, January 27, 2011

Making Waves

Or trying to.

You know I found the perfect radio station on pandora...its Matt and Kim. The best mix of everything soft I love. Plenty of Arctic Monkeys and M&K.
Pretty stoked on this.

I feel like Ive really been getting things done this week.
Ive had several more interviews
Got an esthetics job
Denied said job for the paltry pay
Learning how to do my taxes
Watched much american idol
danced
schemed
Crafted.

Ill post some pictures of my crafties tomorrow or something, whenever I have time for more than typing.
I need more blogs to read!!

Suggestions?

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Freedom

I dont want to be so weighed down anymore. Im confused about my future, Im afraid about the coming death of my gama, Im lonely for my past friends and constantly frustrated.

My heart is stone heavy right now. I dont like being this way. Im not a sad camper ever but the past few months Ive been an outright nightmare. I feel bad that Jess has to deal with it honestly.

I am trying to be more positive I really am...I promise!!!

On a better note I think the supplements my gramps got me for my knee are helping. Pain free for two days so far. I hope it continues but Im afraid it might be that I havent been working as much.
Also my hands are so cold they are vampire white haha did I really just say that. BUT seriously its kinda gross looking.

Whatever why am I still typing this useless post.
hooodywhooo yalllll!!!

Friday, January 21, 2011

Welp

Its the new year and I havent even posted anything yet. I dont know how I am so good at Twittering on a daily basis and even tumblr but I cant get the hang of actually blogging. One of my goals is to try to post a few times a week.

Soooo in this new year already I
passed my state boards
am a licensed esthetician
filled out a bazillion job aps
sent out a bazillion resumes
had a few interviews
nothing overly hopefull

All I know is I need out of Walgreens and I need it now. That job is sucking the life out of me. I know I am probably being a baby about it, not everyone gets to have a good job but when I look around to see so many people with jobs that dont suck it takes me a bit on the j side. I dont think it is too much to ask to have a job that is creative and body mod friendly now is it? I am definitly not made for retail. It literaly drains a piece of me every day I go in.
If anyone out there is reading this for some obscure reason and can hook me up I will gladly take any job you would like to throw at me.

Im not into new years resolutions and I did a tumblr post vaugly about this but some of my new years goals are:
To get in shape...so cliche right
To make and stick to a schedule....as much as my job allows
To eat better/ homecooked foods...since my gamas been sick thats kinda fallen away
To get an esthetics/creative based job...if there are any out there
To find ways to be creative/do art every day
To find a few more classes to take to expand my esthetics knowledge
Find a gym and become a member
Find a new place to live
BUDGET MYSELF
and last but not least
Quit letting my fears control me

I think this is a bit daunting but if I actually try to stick to it then it can work out right??